Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery

[Jhon Dolton]

I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of a course in miracles acim, and fo the first time in a lengthy while, I don't feel alone.

Section of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I could be doing this for the wrong reason; as a means to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to talk about wasn't yet clear at that time; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.

That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have enable you to see inside. Don't want it troubling your brain, won't you allow it be?” This confused me as I could not think of something that I had said that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents'peace of mind, by just my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief is being (has been?) released.

You will find other items that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.