Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery

[Jhon Dolton]

I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in an extended while, I don't feel alone.

Section of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I will be doing this for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to fairly share wasn't yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.

That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have allow you to see inside acim teacher. Don't want it troubling your brain, won't you allow it be?” This confused me as I really could not think of something that I'd stated that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I'd in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents'satisfaction, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.

You can find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.